Alright, again, it's been a long time since I've been on here to update it. Like anyone reads it. *Siiigh.*
Anyways; high school. Four years of my life that I have to go through complete bull shit in order to start my life. And it's supposed to prepare me for life...? I don't get it. How is going through day-to-day little girl drama supposed to prepare me for the real world? This, my friend, is FAR from the real world.
Granted, I don't have a lot of experience of the real world. But, I can promise you, high school isn't the real world nor is it preparing you for the real world. If you truly want to prepare for it, get a damn job. hahaha.
To me, and this is my opinion, high school is the four years of your life that you get to have as much fun as possible and raise as much Hell as you can. And get away with it. THAT'S what prepares you for the future. And I'm being serious.
Now, let me edit myself. I don't mean raising Hell as in partying and doing drugs and shit. I mean raising Hell as in standing up for what's right, having fun without doing it illegally, and sometimes breaking the rules and doing something stupid. The things that will have you remembered in life.
The ones that raise Hell are the ones that will be remembered. The ones that don't are the ones that will be remembering the others. And if you're one of the ones that caused trouble in high school and got in trouble numerous times for it; you're obviously persistent and a lot of people love persistence. It gets you far in life.
Again; I don't mean getting in trouble with drugs and other things like that.
High school are the four years that you prove yourself as a person and go on. I mean "high school" as in the four years from the age 14 to the age 18. Not the actual going to school and sitting in class.
Needless to say; I'm going to be remembered.
(Very short, but... It's something.)
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
Some thoughts...
It's been a while, I know. (Like anyone reads this. *Sighs*)
First, I would like to address the fact that it is Independence Day and I just got back from a rather ironic situation. My family and I have been going to the nearest college town to watch fireworks. Where? At the casino parking lot. Which is owned by the Choctaw Indians.
Didn't the white man -- the people who created this country -- destroy the Native American culture? Granted, they're still around and still have a rather rich culture, but the Europeans/White Man destroyed most of it.
So, isn't it kind of funny that the Native Americans are actually supporting in celebrating the rise of a country that nearly destroyed them?
If you think about it, it's actually really funny. They're getting their revenge now. All this white people (and other races) are going to their casinoes and wasting most of their money gambling. While the Tribe sits high and mighty with great health care. Smart? I think so.
'Nuff about the Cowboys and Indians..................................................
*Sighs*
I'll be honest, I have some major insecurities about my body. I'm rather tall for a girl and I'm thin. But, for the most part, I like my body. Not much to dislike, really.
But, I've come to find out, not only do I might feel a certain aspect of my physical body is rather lacking, but so does most of the world.
Yeah, okay, I'm not a shy person. I'll be blunt. I have some breasts. But, I'm okay with that. Usually I am, I mean. Why? Because I have long legs and I just flat out don't need big breasts.
But, the other day, I was shopping for a new bra. Something cute, you know. But, every single one that I liked had three inches of padding and the words, "Super Push-Up" written on it. Like a 34B is just not big enough. For anyone. Why must I be a C+ before I can be fine? What kind of message is that?
Luckily for me, I can laugh it off and buy a pair of booty shorts. (Which is exactly what I did...) My breasts are fine, my legs are hot. I like it like that. ;)
Now, I do have a point to this. Why can't I like my body? Why -must- I want to change my body? Why -must- everyone want to change their body? We should all be happy with what we have.
If you honestly feel the need to change your body, well, YOU can do so. The rest of us, we should be able to be happy. But the world around us (FULL with people who aren't happy with theirselves) just shoves this "Ideal Image" down our throats.
Ideal Image my ass.
I'm 5'10" and 130lbs, I like my small breasts; Suck it, World!
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High school really has to point.
But, that's a different post. :)
[Tool is the shit.]
First, I would like to address the fact that it is Independence Day and I just got back from a rather ironic situation. My family and I have been going to the nearest college town to watch fireworks. Where? At the casino parking lot. Which is owned by the Choctaw Indians.
Didn't the white man -- the people who created this country -- destroy the Native American culture? Granted, they're still around and still have a rather rich culture, but the Europeans/White Man destroyed most of it.
So, isn't it kind of funny that the Native Americans are actually supporting in celebrating the rise of a country that nearly destroyed them?
If you think about it, it's actually really funny. They're getting their revenge now. All this white people (and other races) are going to their casinoes and wasting most of their money gambling. While the Tribe sits high and mighty with great health care. Smart? I think so.
'Nuff about the Cowboys and Indians..................................................
*Sighs*
I'll be honest, I have some major insecurities about my body. I'm rather tall for a girl and I'm thin. But, for the most part, I like my body. Not much to dislike, really.
But, I've come to find out, not only do I might feel a certain aspect of my physical body is rather lacking, but so does most of the world.
Yeah, okay, I'm not a shy person. I'll be blunt. I have some breasts. But, I'm okay with that. Usually I am, I mean. Why? Because I have long legs and I just flat out don't need big breasts.
But, the other day, I was shopping for a new bra. Something cute, you know. But, every single one that I liked had three inches of padding and the words, "Super Push-Up" written on it. Like a 34B is just not big enough. For anyone. Why must I be a C+ before I can be fine? What kind of message is that?
Luckily for me, I can laugh it off and buy a pair of booty shorts. (Which is exactly what I did...) My breasts are fine, my legs are hot. I like it like that. ;)
Now, I do have a point to this. Why can't I like my body? Why -must- I want to change my body? Why -must- everyone want to change their body? We should all be happy with what we have.
If you honestly feel the need to change your body, well, YOU can do so. The rest of us, we should be able to be happy. But the world around us (FULL with people who aren't happy with theirselves) just shoves this "Ideal Image" down our throats.
Ideal Image my ass.
I'm 5'10" and 130lbs, I like my small breasts; Suck it, World!
.....................................................................................
High school really has to point.
But, that's a different post. :)
[Tool is the shit.]
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Summer'10
It's time for summer. It's a window between school years and it feels like this is how my life is supposed to be. I'm free from school and the drama bullshit that goes along with it. Honestly, I don't care for high school. I love to learn and that's what school is for. But high school isn't. High school is full of bull shit. If I could, I would do home schooling or accelerated courses to get done quicker. But, alas, I can't.
Sorry about my rant on high school, I'm really just not a fan of it. Never have been, probably never will be.
My past summers have been pretty good, nothing too special. They had one major event in them that made them memorable. But this summer, Summer of 2010, is going to be my summer. My summer for a little bit of freedom, a whole lot of fun, a little bit of money, and experiencing life the way it's supposed to be experienced. When I start my junior year at (insert name of high school) in August, I'll have a large smile and a mind full of memories. I can feel it in my heart.
I'm not making any major plans, I'm mainly letting life come towards me on it's own. But I do have a few plans. (Going to the lake with friends, seeing a certain guy, and working for my freedom.) But the rest of the summer (and my life) has to come to me. And I know when God wants me to go through it, He'll put it in front of me.
My summer had a bumpy start but it's getting smoother and smoother. And I'm liking it.
Summer 2010, you and me will be great friends. Just wait and see.
Sorry about my rant on high school, I'm really just not a fan of it. Never have been, probably never will be.
My past summers have been pretty good, nothing too special. They had one major event in them that made them memorable. But this summer, Summer of 2010, is going to be my summer. My summer for a little bit of freedom, a whole lot of fun, a little bit of money, and experiencing life the way it's supposed to be experienced. When I start my junior year at (insert name of high school) in August, I'll have a large smile and a mind full of memories. I can feel it in my heart.
I'm not making any major plans, I'm mainly letting life come towards me on it's own. But I do have a few plans. (Going to the lake with friends, seeing a certain guy, and working for my freedom.) But the rest of the summer (and my life) has to come to me. And I know when God wants me to go through it, He'll put it in front of me.
My summer had a bumpy start but it's getting smoother and smoother. And I'm liking it.
Summer 2010, you and me will be great friends. Just wait and see.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
What is the point?
I'm thanking my lucky stars that I get to say whatever I want on this blog. Why? Because I'm about to stomp on some toes and I HOPE I hurt people. Maybe they'll wake up and realize a thing or two.
Where I'm from, you're not technically 'cool' unless you go out and party. A lot. (SIDE NOTE: I like to think I'm considered 'popular' not 'cool.' I have no desire to be 'cool.') So, that leaves a lot of the kids that I know - whom are extremely 'cool' - out of that loop. Wow. For some reason, this bugs me. Not to the point where I lose sleep but to the point where I don't care and want to say something.
How is being intoxicated so much that your mannerism is altered? Don't understand what I mean? I mean, how is it 'cool' to be the slow kid all the time? Hate to say it, but if you do it enough, guess what is going to happen. You're brain dead. I've seen it happen too many times. It's not attractive. At. All.
Now, I'm a little biased on this. I like being in control of what I say and do - and WHO I do - so I may be looking at this from a totally different perspective. I know not everyone loves being in complete control like I do and loves being able to operate their motor skills at maximum potential. But I do. So, I'm going to try to comprehend this from other's perspective.
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Okay, yeah. I still see absolutely NO fun it. If I want to act like a complete FOOL, I could do it on my own when I'm having fun with the kids I'd consider 'cool.'
And we look at my generation and ask what's going on. *shakes head*
Pressure is everywhere, but it's funny.
Where I'm from, you're not technically 'cool' unless you go out and party. A lot. (SIDE NOTE: I like to think I'm considered 'popular' not 'cool.' I have no desire to be 'cool.') So, that leaves a lot of the kids that I know - whom are extremely 'cool' - out of that loop. Wow. For some reason, this bugs me. Not to the point where I lose sleep but to the point where I don't care and want to say something.
How is being intoxicated so much that your mannerism is altered? Don't understand what I mean? I mean, how is it 'cool' to be the slow kid all the time? Hate to say it, but if you do it enough, guess what is going to happen. You're brain dead. I've seen it happen too many times. It's not attractive. At. All.
Now, I'm a little biased on this. I like being in control of what I say and do - and WHO I do - so I may be looking at this from a totally different perspective. I know not everyone loves being in complete control like I do and loves being able to operate their motor skills at maximum potential. But I do. So, I'm going to try to comprehend this from other's perspective.
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Okay, yeah. I still see absolutely NO fun it. If I want to act like a complete FOOL, I could do it on my own when I'm having fun with the kids I'd consider 'cool.'
And we look at my generation and ask what's going on. *shakes head*
Pressure is everywhere, but it's funny.
Monday, May 31, 2010
"Girls become lovers..."
(The title is from, "Daughters" by John Mayer. If you haven't heard the song; Go look it up.)
Here are some pretty random things about you. Some things that my readers needs to know.
1) I recently turned 16. Go me!
2) I feel older than 16. Just saying.
3) I'm either mature or immature; I can be either.
4) I want to be a high school English/Creative Writing teacher.
5) I'm always thinking of random things to write about.
(www.elledoug.deviantart.com)
6) Recently, I've fallen in love with photography. It's amazing.
7) My best friend happens to be a boy that I just broke up with.
8) I don't do little girl drama.
9) I want to travel! I want to see the world! There's only so much you can learn from books and the internet, the rest you have to experience. I want to experience absolutely EVERYTHING.
10) I'm willing to try anything at least once.
11) Life is only a one time thing - I'm going to do EVERYTHING.
12) Learning is the biggest thrill in the world. I love that feeling I get when I think, "Hm. That is interesting. I can't wait to tell someone else."
13) I'm intelligent, yes. I'm not arrogant, I'm confident.
14) I know I'm attractive, but I really do not care. I much prefer to work on my brain and my personality than I would my face and hair. If you don't believe me, well... Sorry.
15) Books are amazing. I can get lost in a book for hours and hours and imerge not knowing what has actually been going on.
16) I see the world completely different that you do, we should talk. :)
17) Yeah, I'm going to go read.
So, what do you say? Would we make good friends?
Here are some pretty random things about you. Some things that my readers needs to know.
1) I recently turned 16. Go me!
2) I feel older than 16. Just saying.
3) I'm either mature or immature; I can be either.
4) I want to be a high school English/Creative Writing teacher.
5) I'm always thinking of random things to write about.
(www.elledoug.deviantart.com)
6) Recently, I've fallen in love with photography. It's amazing.
7) My best friend happens to be a boy that I just broke up with.
8) I don't do little girl drama.
9) I want to travel! I want to see the world! There's only so much you can learn from books and the internet, the rest you have to experience. I want to experience absolutely EVERYTHING.
10) I'm willing to try anything at least once.
11) Life is only a one time thing - I'm going to do EVERYTHING.
12) Learning is the biggest thrill in the world. I love that feeling I get when I think, "Hm. That is interesting. I can't wait to tell someone else."
13) I'm intelligent, yes. I'm not arrogant, I'm confident.
14) I know I'm attractive, but I really do not care. I much prefer to work on my brain and my personality than I would my face and hair. If you don't believe me, well... Sorry.
15) Books are amazing. I can get lost in a book for hours and hours and imerge not knowing what has actually been going on.
16) I see the world completely different that you do, we should talk. :)
17) Yeah, I'm going to go read.
So, what do you say? Would we make good friends?
Ah. The working world.
Well, I suppose it's 'official' now. I am, what some would say, a 'young adult.' I have my first real job and it's actually... work. It's interesting, though. And I like things to be as interesting as possible. That's just how I role, yah digg?
As you can guess, tonight was my first night. It was what you would expect to be, I was training and didn't know shit. *shrugs* It's a given. But it's also a given that I learned quickly and picked up on a lot. After a few hous, I was comfortable and went along with the joking and laughing. Very energetic place - I'm a very energetic girl. So, maybe it's a match. haha.
You know, I have to say, I'm finally where God wants me to be. I'm moving but, yet, I'm staying in one place. Life is finally going in the right direction, I believe. I still have some kinks, but when does anyone NOT? Life can't be absolutely perfect. But I can live this way.
Sadly, I know I have to enjoy it while it lasts. I know I'll be sitting on top of the highest mountain peek today but tomorrow, or next week, or next month, I'll be trying to swim through a current. In the Bermuda Triangle. Hey, I'm a teenage girl, I get to over exaggerate my life problems.
It's summer time and I'm ready for my life to stay good. After my fall, winter, and spring being full of torment and pain; I'm ready for a good'ol summer of love and fun. Who's with me?
As you can guess, tonight was my first night. It was what you would expect to be, I was training and didn't know shit. *shrugs* It's a given. But it's also a given that I learned quickly and picked up on a lot. After a few hous, I was comfortable and went along with the joking and laughing. Very energetic place - I'm a very energetic girl. So, maybe it's a match. haha.
You know, I have to say, I'm finally where God wants me to be. I'm moving but, yet, I'm staying in one place. Life is finally going in the right direction, I believe. I still have some kinks, but when does anyone NOT? Life can't be absolutely perfect. But I can live this way.
Sadly, I know I have to enjoy it while it lasts. I know I'll be sitting on top of the highest mountain peek today but tomorrow, or next week, or next month, I'll be trying to swim through a current. In the Bermuda Triangle. Hey, I'm a teenage girl, I get to over exaggerate my life problems.
It's summer time and I'm ready for my life to stay good. After my fall, winter, and spring being full of torment and pain; I'm ready for a good'ol summer of love and fun. Who's with me?
Nueva Vida
The title of this post explains everything right now. Everything from the way I think to the way I think - Even the way I look. (I'm cut my hair and dyed it a dark brown; Not too different, but enough.)
Why? Because in the short (and by short, I mean looooong) time I spent not posting, my life has changed drastically. I won't dwell too long on what has happened. It's done and it's over. All that we have to remember of it is a bran new me. My life, my peronality, who I am; All has been changed. But, it's a good change, I promise.
It's the end of May and I've learned so much about myself. Like I love to drive bare-foot and I have the best friend(s) a girl could ever have. I know a lot of people don't read this, but I'm going to change that.
My sophomore year has ended and I'm right now in the middle of my high school career. I'll be a junior come August and I am up to my pretty blue eyes in extra-stuff. (It's 3 in the morning, cut me some slack on my lack of $5 words, okay?) I won't go on and on about how much I have to do and how hard it's going to be. I'm doing it because it's going to be fun and I want to. So... that's all good.
And tomorrow, or well... Today, will be my first day at work. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I got my first job. I am now a worker at Braum's. If you don't know what Braum's is, basically it's like Dairy Queen. I get to dip ice cream, serve milkshakes, and contribute to America's obesity. Sorry if that offends you.
I feel it's very appropriate, no? Summer time and I get to dip ice cream. I'm happy with it. (It was either this or Sonic. I don't feel like being a car hop.)
That was a quick peek into my new life and all that is going on around me. Be expecting more from me in the next few days.
Remember; I need you now. ;)
Why? Because in the short (and by short, I mean looooong) time I spent not posting, my life has changed drastically. I won't dwell too long on what has happened. It's done and it's over. All that we have to remember of it is a bran new me. My life, my peronality, who I am; All has been changed. But, it's a good change, I promise.
It's the end of May and I've learned so much about myself. Like I love to drive bare-foot and I have the best friend(s) a girl could ever have. I know a lot of people don't read this, but I'm going to change that.
My sophomore year has ended and I'm right now in the middle of my high school career. I'll be a junior come August and I am up to my pretty blue eyes in extra-stuff. (It's 3 in the morning, cut me some slack on my lack of $5 words, okay?) I won't go on and on about how much I have to do and how hard it's going to be. I'm doing it because it's going to be fun and I want to. So... that's all good.
And tomorrow, or well... Today, will be my first day at work. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I got my first job. I am now a worker at Braum's. If you don't know what Braum's is, basically it's like Dairy Queen. I get to dip ice cream, serve milkshakes, and contribute to America's obesity. Sorry if that offends you.
I feel it's very appropriate, no? Summer time and I get to dip ice cream. I'm happy with it. (It was either this or Sonic. I don't feel like being a car hop.)
That was a quick peek into my new life and all that is going on around me. Be expecting more from me in the next few days.
Remember; I need you now. ;)
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